It's currently 10 o'clock at night and I'm up thinking about a million different things.  You know how everyone has that time in their life that's filled with uncertainty?  I feel like my time is now.  Almost every single day I question what I want to do next, short term and long term.  My next milestone is graduating with my Bachelor's (spring 2018 can come a little faster) and if I'm being completely honest I have no idea what I want to do with that degree.  I know what I really want to do with my life but it doesn't match up with the careers that my degree would support.

I'm going to be transparent and honest with myself and with God by saying that the life I want for myself has nothing to do with my degree.  I don't want a 9-5 job that's filled with stress.  I don't want to get up and go to a job that doesn't make me happy.  I don't want to get a paycheck every month that reflects my weekly hours and not my creativity.  I don't want to come home every day and spend my nights with should've, could've, and I wish I would've.  I want to live a life full of satisfaction, not settling.  I want to use my platforms to create, inspire, and influence.  I want to wake up every day and look forward to creating content that I just so happen to get paid for.  I don't need $100,000 a year to be happy, I just need to know that what I'm doing is within God's plan for my life and the rest will come as He intends it to.

I've been writing for as long as I can remember.  I would write in journals, I would make up stories, I would write anytime about anything.  That's what I want to do.  I want to have my own website where I write anything that comes to mind.  I want my website to inspire others to take a leap of faith with life and go for what makes them happy.  I want to share my thoughts with others and create a space where people can feel like they have an online friend they can share anything with.  I want people to look at my blog and say, "if she can do it, so can I".  I want to spread God's love and let other people see what He's doing in my life so they can be inspired to tell the next person what He's doing in theirs. I recently started a side business - chalkboard art.  I've also been doodling for as long as I can remember and I have some pretty penmanship if I do say so myself.  It's been a fun and creative outlet for me and I enjoy getting the chance to design something special for other people.

With all of that said, I guess the bottom line to all of this is knowing that it's okay to feel a little lost sometimes.  It's okay to doubt and have feelings of uncertainty in life.  When you find what you love, do it.  Go all out and be the best you can be, no matter what you're doing.  Do everything to the glory of God and the rest will work itself out.  I don't know how long it will take me, I may fail along the way, and I may change my mind again before I get it right but I will figure out how to profit from my passion.  I can't wait to see where God takes me and I'm especially excited to share it with everyone around me.  Until next time...

All My Love,

Tyler 💜