Where Have I Been?
Where have I been? How’s life? What have I been up to? Well… the short answer is life has been stressful and I’m trying to get myself together lol. The last few months have been challenging, rewarding, stressful, and interesting to say the least. I always say that things usually fall apart before they fall into place and let’s just say that I’m still waiting for some things to stop falling apart lol. If you’re in your 20s you know exactly what I’m talking about.
I guess the first thing to talk about is my new job. I’m teaching now and I absolutely love it. I finally decided that I wanted to be a teacher and I figured I would substitute teach first to see what grade I was really interested in. I had this whole plan to go back to school in the spring to get my credential so I can have my own permanent classroom. You guys… I missed the deadline to apply! When I tell you I cried… It was a two-part application and I mixed up the deadline dates and didn’t realize it until about 4 days past the deadline. That was about a month ago and if I’m being honest, I’m still upset about it. I had a plan for the next year or so of my life all set up and now I’m back to the drawing board. I feel a little defeated and I definitely feel confused.
It was most upsetting because it took me months and months to figure out what I was going to do after graduation and when I finally decided, everything fell apart. That’s life though… So now, I’m back to questioning if I want to teach or if I want to explore other family support services. If I do teach, what grade do I go for? It stresses me out because there are so many options that it’s hard to choose. I turn 25 in February and I feel the societal pressure of life’s timeline to hurry and make a decision. Do I go back to school? Do I completely switch careers? I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know. Can we just all decide to stop asking the 20 somethings what they’re doing in life and how’s school? Please lol. Thanksgiving is coming up, someone help me come up with an answer to “so what are you doing now?” because so far all I have is, “I don’t know I’m just kinda winging it”.
What else? I’ve been trying to make more of an effort to be more adventurous and “get out more”, meet new people, etc. I love being at home and relaxing by myself but I also have some pretty cool friends that I love spending time with. I live in a city that’s constantly changing and there’s so much to see. I find that being more social really helps with my mental health which probably sounds obvious but if you know me, you know I love to just chill in my room. I’ll be sharing my adventures in some future posts! Life has been crazy, life has been good. I’ve been focusing on figuring out the Lord’s plan for me. Trying to find positivity in adversity is challenging but it’s all apart of the journey. I’ll keep you updated… In the meantime, I’m back to blogging and it feels awesome. Any post suggestions? Leave em below… Make sure you subscribe, and I’ll see you in my next post!
“Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path.” Psalm 119:105 NIV
All My Love,
Tyler